Nothing beats losing someone forever. It's been close to a month since the day you left this world. There was never a day that i stopped thinking about you, missing you. I long for you once more. I need you. But you feel so far. I miss going to the hospital to visit you, holding on tightly to your very warm hands, praying in my heart that you'll be alright, you'll be okay. And leave the hospital telling you to get well soon. I miss saying goodbye ah gong. It used to be goodbye ah gong, goodbye ahma. I'm sorry, im sorry for taking you for granted. I should have told you that i love you on that very night you left. I should have started to do the photo album much earlier because you left without seeing it. That very night, i can never forget how much i tremble while walking towards your ward, only to see the curtains close. I can never forget how hard i cry when i went over to hug you and how loud i cry out for you, but you were just lying there, not moving at all. I do not want to live with regrets anymore. Will you please come and wipe away these tears of mine and tell me that you are happy up there? I love you ah gong, forever..