Long long long ago pictures. Haha told you i was lazy! Abel's 1st birthday at grassroots playroom. Anyway, ruiqi, cheer up ok! We love you :)

Still cant believe tomorrow will be the last day of 2009. Happy yet now that when i think back, its kinda sad to leave those memories behind. 2009 was actually indeed the best year i would say, because this year i learnt alot and have gone through alot. I had rlly rlly happy times and rlly rlly sad times. In fact, be it happy or sad memories, i would want to bring it with me and remember it forever because these memories made me a better person. I am a much stronger person, no wait i have always been strong, i dont cry easily. But 2009 was the period when i kept crying n crying, sometimes in front of my friends, sometimes secretly under my bed. And the worst time when i could rlly feel my heart ache while crying and that was only once. Yup before 2009, all these has never happen to me. But i know for sure 2010 will be a better year, cause whatever i come across next year, i will know what to do and not make foolish decisions like what i always do this year. In fact the truth is if everything that happened in 2009 did not happen, i bet i will suffer more in future. I believe everyone will go through such times for at least once. I promise myself that i will not make stupid decisions and end up crying ever again. All these will stop in 2010. Hopefully i will only cry over my studies which i bet i will because next year will be a stressful year and nothing else. I know because of me, my friends suffered alot too. Each time i make a stupid decision, they too, suffer the consequences with me. Many times this has happen, yet i just keep going on and on, without even realising it. Yes they may get sick of it sick of me crying over spilt milk but they will never ever forsake me. At times, i really blame myself for being me. Despite being the oldest, its always them comforting me. Its not me protecting them and instead its them who protect me. When i am sad, they r there. But when they r sad, i am not there because my heart is already overfilled with sadness. I always behave as though i'm the youngest when the fact is i am actually the oldest. Being the oldest yet behaving like the youngest, ha pretty much a lousy friend? That's why to me my friends r the most important people in my life. To the extent if i have to choose between my boyfriend or friends, i will choose my friends. Because thats how much i love and need them. Yup 2009 has been a year all about friends friends friends. Sad times my friends will be there, happy times definitely with my friends too. Everything that happen in 2009, only they will know. I believe if one day we were to sit down and think back about what happen in 2009, we will all start crying again :) Ahhhhhhhhh, always wanna end each year with a short and sweet post but this year rlly a no no. Goodbye 2009, welcome 2010.