TAINTEDSTREETS

2012-02-06T01:46:00.000+08:00

I hate how important you are to me and i hate how i always feel that you don't treasure me as much as i treasure you. I hate how i always have the fear that one day i'll lose you. I hate how i always feel that they can replace me. I hate how i always get paranoid over you. I hate how you don't open up to me. I hate how you can always make me sad about the slightest things. I hate how sometimes i feel you don't need me. I hate how sometimes i feel that i don't actually know you well. I hate how i always feel that you're bored when you're out with me. I hate how................This list is never ending because you're so important to me.

2012-02-06T01:22:00.001+08:00

A country i would definitely visit again

2012-01-30T02:05:00.002+08:00

I really wanna punch you kick you box you slap you you idiot

2012-01-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

To the precious one : why do you have to make things so complicated? Why is it so hard to just be friends with you? Why is our relationship so fragile, so weak? Why do i always make you sad?
I have so much to say, but you're so far far away. But i miss you, i do. But i don't feel anything from you......... I'm sorry i can never make you happy

2012-01-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

I cannot imagine my life without you or i would say there will be no life after you

HAIRPEE CHEENA KNEW EAR

2012-01-24T00:47:00.000+08:00

2012-01-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

HI ALL. I know i promised to blog since forever but you know zara is taking up all my precious time so yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Here i am with my sissy's macbook- camwhore,kdramas,facebook. I was so happy cos it.s cny and i am off for 3 days but it turns out that cny is so much more boring~ other than the food everything else sucks. Infact, i miss my zara friends~ However i cant wait for my contract to end i have so much to do with my bffs~ SHOPPING TOO. btw, kinda accepted my sucky results
already. BUT still don,t know what am i gonna do with my life..............

2011-12-30T01:03:00.001+08:00

I can't actually describe how pathetic i am now

2011-12-26T02:15:00.000+08:00

Hi all, i'm not sure if anyone still visits this site or remember that it ever existed~ but i'm gonna start blogging again soon~ i miss blogging haha. Been've so busy with work and work and just work. I need a space to talk to~ so i'll be back! I know i'm talking to myself but oh well this can be a personal non privated space:)

2011-11-09T01:34:00.001+08:00

I need to scream, shout, vent, cry it all out. Because the thoughts in my head are suffocating the hell out of me. No one knows what i'm going through exactly. And life is just so unfair. Everything that she does is wrong. No matter how hard she tries to make things all right, she's still wrong. Always wrong. Insensitive. Bitch. Me.

2011-09-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

Life's gooood OOoooooooooooOoOoOoo.OoooOoooooOooooooOoooooo
As long as it doesn't involve you

Hurt

2011-09-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

I insist on wanting the old one back because it contains memories and i want it back regardless of ugly it is now. I have no idea why i can't have it back. This is probably the very first time you actually vent your anger on me. Perhaps you're going through alot now thus the reaction. Wish you well. The reason why you 'sow' is because of the olevel papers so dont't give up because you don't know how well you've reap yet. Don't let prelims bring you down.

2011-09-19T00:25:00.001+08:00

"Nothing can comprehend"

2011-09-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

''My thoughts are hard to write out, or even share for that matter. In my head it all makes sense, but in my mouth, words refuse to form. So just smile, it's a whole lot easier than explaining everything or anything at all''

2011-08-20T02:00:00.000+08:00

Just found out that my sister got 83/90 for her alevels....... -lost for words- Now i know why my parents are so worried over me. I seriously don't know what am i doing with my life........ I feel so pressurize..... My parents have to stop having the thinking that since i do better than my sister in psle, i have to do better than her all the way...... Wth is psle man...... Sigh my life suck

2011-08-19T17:33:00.000+08:00

My saving campaign for the month of July and August was a success:-)

It took me two months to save a total of $200. Eating biscuits everyday and saying no to my cravings was indeed a torture but nonetheless, i guess/i hope it was all worthwhile. Now i have to pray that the month of September will come swiftly, i need my allowance!!!! Sigh but just when i thought i can abort my saving campaign, it strucked me that i have to start saving for my PROM............

2011-08-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

Am i pms-ing? Sigh i dont even know how is it like to pms? But all i know is i'm feeling shitty. Like literally. Probably a mouthful of chocolates can make me feel better. Or maybe it's because i am tired. Although lying on my bed now still don't seem to make me feel right. Or maybe it's the fact that i am really angry. I can take jokes but not all the time. I have feelings too. I can't always accept your joke as a joke. And laugh along with you all the time. And when i stop doing so, i'm at fault. Jokes can sometimes be hurting too. I really hate being me.

2011-08-12T23:37:00.001+08:00

*Girls guilty of camwhoring non-stop when they are bored* *Me raises hand*

Hate-love relationship with my iphone. #distraction #accompany

2011-08-05T12:42:00.000+08:00

对不起,这句话,我很久就应该说了

2011-07-31T19:54:00.004+08:00

Hey there, how are you?

2011-07-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

Http://taintedstreet.tumblr.com

2011-07-24T15:53:00.002+08:00

There's alot i dont understand.

2011-07-22T13:41:00.001+08:00

I was stupid to even keep quiet all these while. You have to really learn to keep your comments to yourself. I have no rights to blame and hate? I act as though i have no fault? Dude, what do you know? Just like how you scold her for interfering, aren't you being the same? You have no rights, no rights to say me at all. Wanted to say all these the minute you say me, but i kept it all in. Knowing that you are THAT KIND of guy, i choose to ignore. But hey, there's a limit to ignorance. And cursing and swearing for someone to die? You're the worst kind of guy. You will get your karma for all the mean words and comments you have on people that didn't do a shit to you. I am one of them. Stop interfering with my relationship and fuck off

2011-07-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Wanz

Studying makes me ugly

2011-07-11T00:33:00.001+08:00

12:10am All alone in my empty room. Mind's in a mess. $300 per month is indeed a large sum of money. What have i been doing? It's not as though these $300 had paid off. Not even a single A for any subject and whatsmore a class position of 24. All these while i didn't even spare a thought for my parents. Yes i go tuition i study but never have i thought about the money that's involved. Neither did i take my studies seriously having the thought in my mind that my parents are spending a bomb on me i must give my all. Tuition was just my school to me and school was just a place for me to rot in. I don't learn anything at school and i know i'm at fault for not listening in class, sleeping, chatting. If I minus all that and give my 101 attention, probably there isn't even a need for tuition. The thought of $300times17months kills me literally. Had a talk with mom that day, can never feel any guiltier than ever. She even told me not to worry when i told her i want to quit tuition. She's more worried about my studies than about the money. What kind of a daughter am i? Shit me. I must do well because of the hard-earned money that was spent worthlessly on me.

2011-06-30T23:33:00.004+08:00

New look. So can i have a new life too?

2011-06-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

#99 Fill up my wall with films

2011-06-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

"A guy and a girl can be just friends. But at one point or another, they will fall for each other. Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe forever"

-500 days of summer

2011-06-18T23:02:00.001+08:00

Check out my mom's new lappy webcam hahaha

2011-06-16T00:01:00.000+08:00

Had the sudden urge to blog, no idea why. Holidays are yet again coming to an end. This holiday, i would say is the worse holiday i had ever had. Apart from my class outing, i don't remember having any other outings. Tuition home tuition home. Oh wait apart from the fun i had yesterday when friends came over to swim, other than that, my holiday is pretty much a bore. Also thanks to the fact that i'm being tied up by my parents. Freedom is long over. Cheers to Olevels~ SIAN

2011-06-11T01:28:00.000+08:00

I don't deserve you and you deserve someone better than me.....

2011-05-14T22:32:00.001+08:00

YOU

2011-05-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

Having the time of my life these days. I feel whole. I feel happy, really happy. Be it in studies or anything else, i feel motivated. And i look forward going to school, look forward to every morning and every night. My life is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

I'm not good with words and i hate expressing my thoughts. Thus the lack of blogposts. Life's been peaceful and i guess that's a good thing? Been've rather drained by studies thou, look at those ugly eyebags. Sigh. Anyways, o level chinese in 24 days. *Fingers Crossed*

To the one and only faithful dude who reads my blog frequently, this blog post is specially for you. Admire my pretty face(a girl version of your face) up there and you'll no longer feel that my blog is dead. Hehe^^ Let's study hard together! Fist bump! ;)

2011-04-23T23:26:00.004+08:00

I'm in love with my iphone!!!!!!! ~~ But it's really a big distraction. Check twitter, facebook, tumblr, blogshop, zilian, games(jewel battle!!). However, thanks to all these, no more lonely bus rides staring at my kuku china phone waiting for texts!! So who's next to spam my iphone camera with me? ^^

2011-04-15T16:19:00.001+08:00

I miss December

2011-04-13T22:59:00.004+08:00

The Script 2011 - Best night ever

I see you when i see me

2011-04-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

Dear life, would you please move at a slower pace? I can't keep up :(

I dont spend my days hanging at town, watching television, using the computer anymore BUT neither do i study. All i do is daydream, stare into space, let my thoughts run wild. Can't let so much things affect me anymore! Study hard people ciao!

All i heard was nothing

2011-04-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

Am i better off dead. Am i better off a quitter. Am i better off alone.

2011-04-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

Today I failed to hold back my tears. I finally let it out. Guess I've kept it in me for too long. All I long for now is just a simple life, just a simple life will do.

2011-03-27T16:35:00.001+08:00

Today is stay home sunday, what a bore

2011-03-27T16:32:00.001+08:00

Had two days of CIP in a row!

Can you believe this granny below is 94 years old?

Although this granny can't speak, it's so nice to see her always smiling.

Good day spent at SWAMI. May you granny(s) stay happy for the rest of your life. If only ahgong was still around :(

Flag day on saturday. Standing for 4 hours, getting ignored by singaporeans isn't easy. But a red pretty YMCA shirt and 4 hours of cip made it worthwhile.

2011-03-27T00:27:00.001+08:00

If love is like perfume, I'll lavish mine on you. Till every drop is gone, I'll pour my love on you.

2011-03-26T14:06:00.002+08:00

Miss you jas chun syuh<3

2011-03-24T22:14:00.001+08:00

2011-03-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

" I once read somewhere that when you can't make a decision, you should flip a coin. Because the minute it is in the air, you know exactly what you want the answer to be "

2011-03-23T01:15:00.002+08:00

How I wish someone could eat up my sadness and feed me with happiness..

2011-03-21T23:33:00.000+08:00

Thoughts running wild in circles......................

2011-03-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

Grabbed a mask from the refrigerator, lying on my bed right now with the cooling mask on my face ....Intention is to be good to myself since there's stupid school tomorrow. Can't believe my holidays are gone for good gone gone gone~ May this night be the longest night ever...................

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2011-03-19T00:54:00.000+08:00

The moon felt so close to me today. I love Marina Barrage, Singapore's so beautiful. Can we go there someday..?

2011-03-17T23:12:00.001+08:00

Head feels light after trimming my hair!!!!!!!!!!!! Please continue to grow!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-15T02:08:00.000+08:00

It's 2am and Sleepless nights like these never fail to get me all emotional. It's always at such a time that you start to think alot and nothing you do would destroy the thoughts that ruin your night. Not even the favourite songs on my mp4 nor my bolster would help make my night better. Sleeping with my head on the other side of my bed instead seems useless too. Once again, i feel lonely and there is nothing I can do to deny the fact.

2011-03-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

'' Because we always closed one eye and we dont take things to heart because we know each other deep enough to realise that whatever he had done wasnt done in his true self. '' Give me a heart of a guy.

2011-03-14T11:56:00.002+08:00

A good saturday spent in school trying to sell off clothes followed by a scary korean movie at dm's house follwed by red riding hood movie at amk hub. Home alone on a Monday (brother's at home but it doesnt make a difference) . Dad's at Vietnam. Mom's at JB. Sister (just texted me saying she bought 2 Billabong tops for $18, which apparently she claimed that they don't have my size so yup she didnt got any for me) went out. SoMEbOdY please ask me out????

2011-03-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

Part of me wants the world to end, part of me don't want the world to end. All the pain, stress is overbearing. Yet there are so much things that i have yet to fufil. I hope to know exactly when the world will come to an end, so that there's a choice of who i want to die with. I want to die happily.

2011-03-10T23:36:00.002+08:00

"When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it’s completely silent. You would think as it’s so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it’s silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain." - ‘If You Could See Me Now’, Cecelia Ahern

2011-03-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

@Wanz_ho Baby pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like you're less than fucking perfect<3 Thank You for giving me your strength. Thank you for protecting me. Thank You for fighting for me. Thank you thank you thank you. I will never ever forsake you i will never ever leave you because without you, i'm nothing. So please, get yourself back on track i love you.

2011-03-10T23:07:00.002+08:00

Life is filled with never ending unhappiness. I'm less than perfect, once again i've fallen. How much more do i have to exactly go through and learn and get back up on my feet again? Because i tried my best but i dont succeed. Because i gave my all but i dont succeed. Dear God, let there be Light, Justice, Love and Peace among humanity. I am stronger than yesterday, i am.

2011-03-10T17:26:00.000+08:00

Exactly one month later, thankyou :)

2011-03-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm so scared I'm so scared................. My heart is aching so bad I feel like putting an end to myself

2011-03-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

Ending my good long Saturday at Changi airport swensens having my favorite crayfish beehoon soup slur slurp! Sigh I miss India and Korea so much!!

2011-03-05T11:02:00.001+08:00

Although she isnt happy with her results, how i wish i am half as smart as my sister who got 2As and 5Bs for her Alevels without any Cs and Ds.

2011-03-03T20:52:00.002+08:00

Empty stomach the entire day not feeling hungry at all. I'm weird. Can someone turn me into a sleeping beauty? All i want to do is to sleep forever because i feel so drained. Probably feeling a tad of emotional tiredness too. Time please pass quickly, because time heals.

2011-03-02T21:45:00.003+08:00

How i wish i was the replacement but oh well O level SPA is more important. I feel so tense up already!!! I must do well! Believe it or not, i failed 4 subjects(english, chinese, amaths, ss). I swear my parents are going to kill me. What a failed tuition kid.

2011-02-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

Kim Soo Hyun<3 Last episode of dream high! Oh boy don't want it to end!

2011-02-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

A reserve yet again, don't really mind because i have team mates who criticises and puts others down. I don't actually call them my team mate.

2011-02-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t always promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn

with every good-bye you learn."

2011-02-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

Went roller blading at punggol park, felt so good so carefree. So nice to have a park just below your house. What a fruitful sunday!

2011-02-27T12:17:00.000+08:00

Dear God, please dont take away my weekends :(

2011-02-27T00:16:00.002+08:00

More @ http://goldbarx.blogspot.com/2011/02/support-wanz-plz.html.

PLEASE SUPPORT MY DARLING @WANZ_HO !!

2011-02-26T01:57:00.001+08:00

A good friday to kick start my weekends ! Love you babies.

2011-02-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

Stole this pix from my dad's facebook hahaha frigging act young la cannot take it. Seriously dont you think he look like liang zhi qiang?

2011-02-24T20:25:00.003+08:00

Nothing beats losing someone forever. It's been close to a month since the day you left this world. There was never a day that i stopped thinking about you, missing you. I long for you once more. I need you. But you feel so far. I miss going to the hospital to visit you, holding on tightly to your very warm hands, praying in my heart that you'll be alright, you'll be okay. And leave the hospital telling you to get well soon. I miss saying goodbye ah gong. It used to be goodbye ah gong, goodbye ahma. I'm sorry, im sorry for taking you for granted. I should have told you that i love you on that very night you left. I should have started to do the photo album much earlier because you left without seeing it. That very night, i can never forget how much i tremble while walking towards your ward, only to see the curtains close. I can never forget how hard i cry when i went over to hug you and how loud i cry out for you, but you were just lying there, not moving at all. I do not want to live with regrets anymore. Will you please come and wipe away these tears of mine and tell me that you are happy up there? I love you ah gong, forever..

2011-02-21T22:26:00.001+08:00

Can't wait for common test to mark its end! Somebody please tell me how do i remove the disastrous eyebags of mine? I look horrible...Goodnight, steamboat SOS!!

2011-02-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

Since there's no more you, there's no more anniversary..This is the only place left to rant out my thoughts and feelings, but how am i feeling, right now?

2011-02-18T22:14:00.002+08:00

Finally get to eat ahma's food, I'm sure you miss it as much as i do :( I miss you so dearly my beloved grandfather. Will you please appear in my dreams tonight..?

2011-02-17T23:40:00.001+08:00

My heart knows it all

2011-02-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

2011-02-17T19:47:00.003+08:00

Hope these pixx can brighten my blog a little

2011-02-17T00:03:00.000+08:00

Helping others to get back on track but who's gonna help me get mine back on track? Life's hard. Don't want you guys to end up just like me so please press on.

2011-02-16T20:20:00.000+08:00

Trying to absorb all that i can for tomorrow's geography test but I can't seem to get anything inside my head. I'm screwed I'm a goner. Is is just me or perhaps Bishan library is too quiet?.. Is anyone feeling as shitty as how I am feeling right now?

2011-02-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

Parents quarelled terribly, sleeping in different rooms right now. Am lying on my bed trying to disturb all my thoughts by reciting biology in my mind accompanied with the fear of not being able to do well for biology yet again. Hoping that the next time I open my eyes it will be time for school. Everything is gonna be okay shar, be strong, ah gong's watching over you.

2011-02-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

Watched every performance with bitterness. It's supposed to be HAPPY Valentine's day. But am I happy?

2011-02-13T18:54:00.001+08:00

What's wrong? I've been waking up in the middle of the night these days. At 2am then 3am then 4am. No no I'm doing fine, I'm happy I'm happy. A silent phone is good, no distractions.

2011-02-12T21:35:00.001+08:00

2 out of the 50 films we bought :)

2011-02-12T00:02:00.001+08:00

Letting go of someone that hve been a part of you for 14months isn't easy but I'm determined to. Glad that I hve friends who are so protective of me, whom will always be there for me. Not all of them but just a few.. Goodbye, it's time I regain the old me. And to you, thanks for everything.

2011-02-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

I miss you terribly. I'll remember you for the rest of my life. The best husband ahma can ever get. The best father my dad can ever get. The best grandfather i can ever get. I'll think of you whenever i go to your house. I'll imagine you sitting just right there where you always sit. I'll think of you whenever i eat oyster omelette, satay, durian, these are all your favourite food. I'll imagine you walking about with your umbrella as your walking stick. How you'll always ask me to go to the fridge to get ice cream to eat. How you'll always get up from your seat, go into your room, and come out with a red packet every year during my birthday. How you'll always give the 9 of your grandchildren money when you win 4D. How you never once spurt vulgarities at ah ma. Although many said you were fierce and strict when we were young, but we clearly know that you love us. You are a good loving man.. How you'll wake up everyday at 7am to pray for every single one of us. How much you love going to church, praising God, singing your favourite christian songs. How precious your christian song book is to you. How much you love God. How much you love every single one of us. Thank you ah gong, for giving me such a great Father. And i thank you for being my grandfather for the past 16 years.. Thank you for watching over me for 16 years, and i know you will continue to watch over me up there. Thank you for fighting for 3 months, despite not being to go home, the never ending amount of medicines, the number of times u had to change to different hospitals, can't eat anything except milk through tube feeding. We'll be happy.. I'll be happy, because i know for sure that you are happy up there, that you need not suffer anymore. Don't worry about me, about my studies because i promise ill study hard. Don;t worry about ahma because we'll takecare of her for you. Please please appear in my dreams because i really want to see you again and i want to know that you are doing fine up there. I love you ah gong, forever....forever...

Your granddaughter, Sharlene

2011-02-01T03:06:00.001+08:00

3:06AM. Currently at your funeral, staring at your photograph. I miss you so so so so so so much, my beloved ah gong :( 11 more hours till you'll be completely gone, but you will stay in my heart forever and ever..

2011-02-01T03:05:00.000+08:00

2011-01-27T18:16:00.000+08:00

Heart says : Numb

'Sometimes you dont realize you care for someone, until they stop caring for you'

2011-01-08T23:17:00.001+08:00

@nayyayzz I love you la annoying freak

2011-01-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

The first week of school was bad enough, how much more tiring can it be in the days to come? I have to push myself, i want to do well for my o levels, not for anyone but for myself:) 10 days to my birthday and i guess my wish is still the same because i'm still a 156cm shorty:( 2 years ago my menses started and 2 years later, im still of the same height, why oh why?

2011-01-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

My new room xoxo

2010-12-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

Steamboat lover finally going to meet her girls for steamboat^^

2010-12-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

I kinda miss the life in korea~ All i have to do is to wake up early everyday and there would be a whole list of events awaiting. I get to use my jeans more often too, not worrying about whether ill get a heat stroke!! Still can remember the epic moment which i had to strip naked in order to get into the sauna place *shy* The korean ladies were not embarrassed at all, walking around as though they really had their clothes on! Now that i'm back in singapore, the thought of going back to school fears me, thinking about how am i supposed to catch up with time instead of time catching up with me. I have to constantly remind myself that i'm gonna be 16 in a month!

Winter at korea

2010-12-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

I love ski!!!! If i live there ill definitely learn skiing^^

Can u see snow!!!!! those white small dots are snow!

I love korea! I have so many more pictures to share!! Five stars tour is good! Good hotel good food good places! Stuffs at korea not really cheap but etude house/ faceshop much cheaper than sg! Seaweed kimchi bulgogi everyday~ Weather is too cold! But winter season rocks! Korean girls are hot! More pix soon!

2010-12-03T18:47:00.000+08:00

More fun to come in 3 hours time! Goodbye my love 我的爱人再见~

2010-11-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

Korea in 5 days and I am super excited but hve no idea why haven't I started packing!!!! Perhaps it's because I hve no idea what clothes to bring... Besides it doesn't really matter what I wear inside because I bet I'll have my puffy winter jacket on wherever I go!! Hmm, shall just admire those pretty Korean girls:( first winter experience!!!!!!!! Can't imagine how -2 degrees feels like when under air con I'm already freezing

2010-11-25T22:57:00.001+08:00

@nayyayzz I think you rock 1314

2010-11-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

Its been 15 days since the end of India but i still cant get over it