no one no one can understand how shitty i feel now so much for trying to control my tears from falling and yet still ended up being called as an attention seeker

Lost

I was hoping that a car would bang me as i crossed the roads just now on my way home_l_
Yes im sadist yes whatever
Obviously, my day suck.

Please make it stop, please wake up sharlene, face reality, stop crying. Let the rain make me sick i dont want to go to school i dont want to see you

i thought i was irreplaceable..

h8 school

I CANT BELIEVE SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW HELL NO I DONT WANT TO GO SCHOOL SOMETHING'S STOPPING ME FROM GOING TO SCHOOL AH AND ITS LIKE TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY AND ME AND ERMAN GOT TO KNOW THIS GUN GAME SO HOPEFULLY I WONT GET ADDICTED HAHAHA OKAY LAZY TO BLOG ALREADY I THINK IM GONNA BE VERY BUSY AND WANYI I MISS YOU PLEASE COME TO SCHOOL BYEBYE

Girls

Whats wrong with girls seriously why are girls so sensitive so picky so annonying and irritating why do girls love to gossip so much why do girls talk bad about people behind their backs why are girls so hypocrite why are girls so sensitive over little things why are girls so mean with their words why do girls always make fun of other people without caring about their feelings why are girls so selfish why are girls so self centered why why why why are girls so irritating i'm so sorry to offend girls but dont you guys agree i really hate being a girl and guys stop agreeing with me because though i rather be a guy guys arent that great either im saying all these because i dont understand why are girls like that including me


AND WHY IS MY SUN BURN SO FUCKING PAINFUL

Where ya' go, i miss you so, seems like its been forever that you've been gone

Im back im back im back!!!! Tons and tons of pictures to be uploaded too lazy maybe some other day oh well im so moody now maybe its because holidays are ending:( No more outings with babes no more late nights at park mac no more fun truth or dare games no more crazy bus rides with babes see thats why i feel so moody. Anyway sentosa was shiok man hahaha but my body is suffering now cause its burning ahhhhh its super red aiya so what i wont turn black anywayz. REALLY REALLY WAS A SUPERB DAY, WANYI AND GEENA YOU GUYS MISS OUT THE FUN :( OKAY MY BODY IS REALLI BURNING I WANNA HAVE A COLD BATHE CIAO (:

WEIRD MAN THIS MOVIE ENDING SO CRAPPY BUT THE GUY NOT BAD LAH HAHAHA YES SENTOSA TOMORROW SUN TAN SUN TAN CIAO ^.^

BARBIE DOLLS HAHAHA I GOT ANOTHER NICKNAME FOR THIS HAIRSTYLE : CHINA GIRL -.-

So close yet so far

I cant believe school is starting in 5 days time oh no ive not finish my homeworks yet!!! And i think im just gonna give up on my chinese because ive got two books to read and i have not even finish one yet!! Its taking me ages to just read finish a certain chapter ok cause i am pausing at almost every single word yes my chinese is that bad!

My hair still smells of that chemical ew but i cant wash my hair now, only after 3 days. Still not use to my flat hair aha. I'm like wanyi wannabe now!! HAHA. AH ANYWAY I DONT KNOW WHY I FEEL SO SHAG NOW. ZZZZZ MUST BE THAT STUPID RAIN, MAKE ME WANNA SLEEP.

Hahaha and i got this party @ zirca invitation from tang and i was wondering why he invite me because arent i underage? And then i went to ask him and he told me he send it to all his contacts chey!

i got a new nickname called geisha

Gone

I fell down today as i was super conscious of my new barbie doll cum ahlian hairstyle that i did not watch my steps sigh. Haha 2 blue blacks now. Wa cannot take it super straight please hope it faster turns natural:) At least its not as fizzy and dry now. Sentosa on friday yeaaaaa baby.

-CANT BE BOTHERED WITH YOU-

Etched with marks

Shar says goodbye to her hot nails awww had to go to school though its holidays i still use nail remover to take away my nail polish because i decided to be good so sad cheryl will you do it for me again

Watched dead silence with mediateach members omg the look of the dolls are still in my mind im afraid i cant get to sleep today how how how---> Wasted half of my day to accompany that poor girl with back bone problem to the polyclinic worth it anot i dont know---> Babes came my house to swim today we had fun and they came up to have dinner with me---> Currently talking to terry and daomin on msn---> Going to shop with mummy for girls stuffs tomorroww hee---> goodbye then

And thankyou geena for that cookies and cream ' icecream' heart you
Yay no punctuation marks for this post zai jian

Happy father's day

Hiii just had family gathering at my condo's function room!!! And im back. I just finished enjoying my very own cheesecake. Omg my sister says its nice omg, i seriously did not expect it to be so nice la, its like i did it anyhow i did not even follow it according to the recipe but it turned out to be so nice!! HA HA HA sis says mine nicer than my mum's! Anyhow do also so nice, if do properly how how? hehehe who want to try my cheesecake? :D Sharlene rocks eh eh eh

School tomorrow sians.
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore, go to the bottom left hand corner to vote for extension of holidays!!

I guess that was the only way, for the both of us to be happy, but i still feel empty.

Party World

My angle of taking pictures sucks hahaha.

Happy hour at party world. Sang our hearts out. Fun!!

oKAY i dont dare to say this out cause its so embarrassing but i think i should really say it out. I went to the toilet at party world with jiaying, and the toilet stinks like hell, it was so dirty, and i went in to pee, came out, wanted to wash my hands and then jiaying asked : eh are we in the boys toilet? I turned my head and looked at the sign of the boys toilet door. And AHHHHHHHHH WE STARTED SCREAMING LIKE MAD AND WE RAN TO THE GIRLS TOILET. HAHHAHHAHA. No wonder the toilet so stinky lah, the girls toilet turned out to be so clean and it smells damn good la compared to the boys toilet wth. And the toilet sit was filled with pee LAH wth, boys ah boys, dont know how to aim tskkk. Haha anyway its my fault so i should not be complaining. Hey jiaying blindly followed me in can!! We did see the boys type of urinal but i dont know what we were thinking lah, haha i have no idea who saw us in there but ah whatever nothing happened :)

Yes yes i got videos of me singing but haha dont want show you all lah so paiseh plus yingzhong already say my singing sucks when i always sing so what more when its being recorded HOR? YINGZHONG YOU SUCKs LOR.

Why are you doing this to me?

Almost lover

Ah songs really do express my feelings, yay im finally going to meet up with my primary school mates, *excited* ^.^

Your voice, i miss

You know how it feels to reject someone you love? Thats how i'm feeling right now now now.

Goodbye

Attempted to study with my sister just now, but half the time i was staring into space doing nothing haha. What do you expect when most of the songs in my playlist are all emo songs :( Sigh...

Im okay, im okay, im really okay

Keep my head held high

I hope i made the right choice, yes i wont be happy but at least i had done something that was right, i have to protect myself, protect myself from getting hurt again. Dont love me anymore, please. Im tired of guys, especially you and you. You guys bring nothing but only hurt to me. Ill box any guy that comes my way, so go away. I want to be alone.

Tears me up

Ive fallen too deep, too too deep.

Im suppose to carry on with my life.
Im suppose to pick up my heart that you've thrown.
Im suppose to forget about you.
Im suppose to not think about you anymore.
Im suppose to take as if you never exist.
Im suppose to stop my tears.
Im suppose to fix the broken pieces that you have shattered.
Im suppose to not hurt myself.
Im suppose to pick myself up again.

im suppose to im suppose to im suppose, you think its easy? Why dont you try being me? Maybe its all my fault, if i had not caused you to wait so long, if i had not hurt you so badly previously, if i had not wasted so much of your time, if i had not accepted you earlier, probably things would not have turned out this way. So many what ifs, but the more i think of it the more i hate you. And the more i hate you the more i hate myself. So your one year of waiting has gone down the drain, its your choice your decision your feelings. How i wish i could turn back time, i would have avoided and prevented many things and i guess i would not have suffered so much. Im a failure in everything, im a pure loser. I always fall, i have not once succeeded in anything. Im tired of falling, im tired of crying, im tired of being me, im tired of being in love. Each time i try so hard to pick myself up, ill end up falling again. Laugh at me, laugh all you want. Because i too, am laughing at myself...I always fail in this area of my life, i never once experience happy ending. I thought that this time would be a happy ending that i had always wished for, but it turned out to be the worse..You gave me so much hope, and when im about to reach the top of the mountain you just push me down. You get what i mean? Please dont ever come back because i dont wish to trust you anymore.. So much for those empty promises. FML. Fguys. Im disappointed i am.

sleepless nights, never ending tears, ugly eyebags, big swollen eyes, broken heart. Worth it, NOT. Just wanna say that although i so wanna slap you, at least i did not regret being with you. Thank you for being there for me always.
I MISS YOU.

I AM GOING TO DIE NO I WANT TO DIE NO I AM DYING

PICTURE SPAM

Ilove jollyshandy!

Sometimes its more fun to have unglam pictures, rather than those who twit when they dont even look nice. Im AAL. Haha! My nose bleed just now for God knows what reason. Its 1:15am and i am still not asleep how am i gonna wake up tomorrow to see cheryl performance at NYP .

Abel

Awwww super cute aint he? Poor boy he had to go through an operation so thats the reason for that mark near his lips. So sad i wasnt as cute as him when i was a baby, and the fact that i had much more baby fats than him :(

Lovelees

(F my eye bags)

Its been long babes. Geena and celestine quick come back we miss you. When's gonna be the next outing?

DAOMIN!

3Days spent with her was fabulous, the cool girl with tougue piercing. Xo you.

Love you too ojf.

I'm back because everyone misses me right? HAHA. Chalet was xzzztremly fun man. I had so little sleep thats why im freaaaking tired now. Whole day at changi beach made my skin red again hee hee so happy. RED=HOT=SHARLENE. HAHAH fine la come back next time byes.

Heartless

Off to cell retreat at changi chalet. Will be back on sunday, seeyou!


Oh and this small ang moh boy name benjamin david grand came up to me and wanyi and gave me 5kisses on each side of my cheek for no reason. Haha angmohs are so open. Omg his freaking handsome and cute i swear, his brother too! More handsome than zac efron im not kidding. Aww dont be jealous(: Too bad they are both little kids.

Im on teenage!

Look, so ugly. It says '' Most bad guys always turns out to be gangsters who gets into fights. I'm not sure if i would date him. So i guess i will have to see how much and how well he fight- if at all- before deciding if i want to date him '' Wth this sucks man. Media cheat my feelings lol! I merely said my defination of bad guys are gangsters and it depends whether i would date him. The rest they added it by themselves. Media so mean:( Embarrassed me.

Hahahah wanyi said " I would never date a bad guy! I feel that bad guys are the ones who would ask a girl for her number without even getting to know her first. Thats disgusting! '' . Hhaha wanyi didnt said thats disgusting, you see, media so mean. They themselves thinks its disgusting, lol! Erhem wanyi shouldnt you change what you said alittle? If you know what i mean, ehehehe.

Happy Birthday Daddy

I'm tearing in every ten seconds since the moment i woke up. My eye is in pain, real pain. I can take pain i usually can but this time i cant, so you can imagine how painful it is? The stupid ' pimple' in my eye just wouldnt go off. In fact it gets bigger and bigger. And thus the eyesbags on my right side of eye looks bigger than the other side. Ahhh its killing me. How am i gonna go out with such an ugly eye, its red and swollen. Somebody help me what should i do? Shit im tearing again i tried to squeeze it just now so that the pulse will come out but no its too pain to even blink my eye. I swear i cant take it anymore i swear it hurts like hell .

EDITED

I just went to see the doc and she said its very bad and the fact that i cant wear contact lenses for one week or so. Have to eat anti biotics too. This sucks and i totally have no mood to go out at all. Ive been sleeping the whole day. Now i got no choice to wake up because its my dad's birthday and we are gonna eat crab. But mum says i cant eat because of my eyes, wow great thanks man.

Specially for you

someone says my blog is emo and that someone doesnt want people to have an impression that that someone is not taking good care of me so im gonna have a post specially for that someone.

Hi bitch yea you know i love you. Though i think life sucks now but at least theres still you. At least one of the reasons why im still alive is because of you(: I dont want to say much here ill tell you the rest when i talk to you on the phone alrightttt. Youre supposed to bring joy to my life so dont make me get worried over you always please. XXXXX

i want to be happy everyday i want to love life.

Tired of living

Hi cheryl i totally agree with you that life sucks. When is life gonna end? I hope the world will end soon because i'm tired of living. NOW EVEN HOLIDAYS ARE SUCKY. Shopping is boring to me now, shops are selling the same old boring stuffs. And you cant go anywhere because you are running out of cash. Everyday you can only stare blankly at the computer for hours cause you have nothing else better to do. You cant go out everyday too because your parents will start nagging like they have never nag before. And after you come home from a day of enjoyment you will start to feel guilty of not studying and you will try to force yourself to start your books because you need to buck up with your subjects because you wouldnt want to see bad results on the report card anymore. Life's tough and its driving me crazy. Ive been thinking what if one day the world ends and the years of hard work has gone down the drain? Its not as if you can bring the money with you when you die. You see, there are so much thoughts in your mind. Why cant we just enjoy life for now and not think about anything? So what if you cant be a businessman next time and earn big notes? As long as you enjoy life and not work so hard, why bother if you will be rich or not in the future. Life still can be enjoyable without money? Well, saying so much makes no sense either. Because you will still have to go back to your books. And the life cycle of school will arrive again soon. And the whole cycle repeats, till the day you die. FML.

Thanks a million to you and my friends because without them theres no point in living anymore.

Take me as I am,
'cause I'm going,
I was too scared to start,
And now I'm too scared to let go.
Take me as I am,
'cause I'm growing,
But it's so hard to tell
When I'm not used to this so.

Im addicted to this song ah the devil from this show is so pretty.
Ahhh okay im gonna go out soon. Im gonna do tougue piercing, as if. Not me la, its geena and daomin omg wish them luck man. *SHIVERS*

Always and forever

Hey GuyS omg i'm so glad i'm home because i did not bring out my handphone today and i was out the whole day w/o my precious! I felt so empty, i felt as if i lost connection with the whole world. And i was wondering if i would get at least 10 miss calls but wth no miss calls -.- So no one misses me sigh. But whatever at least my phone is safe with me now.

Im having bad eye bags now and its not that i never sleep it is i cant sleep because my room is super dusty after clearing half of my room yesterday. Had church in the morning, skipped cell because i wanted to go home with my parents to get my handphone but they did not want to go home so we ended up at great world city and i was shopping empty handed without my handphone. I was missing my friends i dont know why, no handphone = miss friends. Though none of them called me the entire day, HMPH! So much for wanting to come home so badly. Fine i shall stop complaining since i bought 2tops from zara today. SO CHEAP. 20bucks each, why so cheap? Because its from zara kids! Hahahah ive not yet grown out of zara kids. Toodoo i wonder why babies these days have nicer and nicer clothes. So unfair. Next stop was vivo city, didnt buy anything and when i reached home i found out that jaslyn was also at vivo! Sighhhhh didnt see her :( Okkkkk ill come back with pictures the next time. And wth the ending to BOF sucks my god my ji hoo so poor thing why in the world did he ended up with no one he is so poor thing i wish i can marry him so that he wont be lonely ahhhhhhh. Over your dead body sharlene okay wake up. Omg i wont even mind being the water girl or the helper of them and get no pay as long as i can see them i think even if its tiring it will still be fun omg imagine the places they go omg omg omg. Okay i dont wish to continue dreaming.

oh and GAL(my sister and i made this up! Try guessing what it means) bitch. Stop freakingly ask me whats my blog song without putting your name and end up using my blog song as your blog song after seeing my playlist. You want copy then dont ask me so irritating cant stand you omg gross. GALGALGAL. Rocks2beme i know but please stop trying to be me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GSS HERE I COME!!

Its a secret place, the land of tears

Hi welcome to taintedstreets! Sorry for not linking most of you because i'm lazy to link and relink always. So yeah! I'm back from eating buddy hoagies with family. Then accompanied my sister for her hair cut, oh sigh should i do soft rebonding? I cant stand my hair, its so fizzy so thick and so fat and so ew. Ahhhhh. Can someone please tell me why those old people and aunties likes fair people? Because the hairdresser keep praising me and my sister, saying we are pretty and all. Hahaha. Who wants my colour?

Ahhhhhhhhhh happy birthday kim hyun joong!